Today you are 5.... WOW!
Mommy has been staring at that sentence for awhile now trying to come up with what to write and not loose it at the same time.
You are so big and such a handsome little boy, mommy is so proud of all that you do. You are very smart, athletic, artistic, empathetic, funny, and loving with a smidge of your daddy's stubbornheaded strong willed temper thrown in too. -Obviously all of the good stuff is from mommy, I'm a "great" athlete don't you know!
I cannot believe it has been 5 years since I first held you. Five years since you first opened your little eyes and peaked up at me as if to say "we can do this mom". In an instant it was love at first sight! Of course I loved you before you were even born but that love intensified 1000x the second you looked at me.
The last 5 years have been the happiest and hardest of my life but I would never change even 1 second of it all!
The first 12 months flew past in a whirlwind of late night slumber parties for just the two of us, marathon breastfeeding sessions, first baths, first foods, first toys, first snow. Your first time sitting up, first time crawling, first time cruising and first steps were all packed into the first 9 months, by 12 months you were running and climbing. There were first words in there, counting 1-10, ABC's and you even learned a song or two.....
1st Halloween, 1st Thanksgiving, 1st Christmas, 1st New Years, 1st Easter-WHOOSH!!
and then POOF...... You were 1!!
Your babyhood was gone! It went so fast!
I tried to pump the brakes, slow things down and savor each day with you but time is funny like that. It seems to move so slow in the moment yet so fast in the big picture.
You loved your books, you treated them like your best friends, at any given moment of the day you were sure to have a book in your hands or close by. We spent many hours curled up together you and I, just reading away. Mommy's lap was your favorite place to be.
I tried to hold on tight, to keep it all from passing too fast.....
and then POOF..... You were 2!!
You accomplished many big boy milestones including potty training and learning to ride your bike (with training wheels of course!).
You discovered your love for art and would draw the most beautiful pictures.
You even caught your first fish!
|1st time fishing|
|loving, caring big brother|
and then POOF..... You were 3!!
No longer a toddler, now you were a preschooler.
We welcomed a new baby into the family and you were so happy. You love babies. You loved to hold her, kiss her, and even feed her a bottle on occasion.
We played outside a lot, bubbles and sticks and side walk chalk OH MY!
|hitting a ball|
|1st Day of Preschool|
and then POOF.... You were 4
We welcomed a 3rd baby girl into our lives and while you love her immensely you were very disappointed that she was not a boy. You want a baby brother so bad and ask almost daily when he will come.
With 4 came even more opinions and independence. You are Mr. I Can Do It Myself these days. You have an opinion on what clothes to wear and dress yourself quite often. Mommy loves to see your creativity shine through in the outfits you choose. They seldom match but they are always so creative.
Mommy willed the time to slow down but it didn't work, the days kept ticking by until....
POOF, TODAY YOU ARE 5!!
In a few months you will start Kindergarten, then you will be away from mommy for a good portion of each day. I am not so sure mommy is ready for that! I will miss you so much!
With 5 you are no longer a preschooler. First you were not a baby, then no longer a toddler and now not even a preschooler. Today you are mommy's little man!
You will always be my Little Man too, even when you are Daddy's age I will still consider you my baby boy. You get so mad at me when I use the words "little" and "baby" to describe you, chastising me that you are a big boy now. I know you are a big boy, but I will always see you as my baby. Mommy's are allowed this!
When I look into your eyes I can still remember, clear as day, the second our eyes locked 5 years ago. In that instant I became a mom and I knew I would do anything up to and including laying down my life in order to protect you.
You are my 5 year old big boy now. I will always and forever keep willing the time to slow down but I have learned it all goes by way too fast.
I am excited for what the next year will bring to us! We will continue on the journey together you and I. I will watch you grow each year and celebrate with you all of your accomplishments but I will also silently mourn the baby/toddler/preschooler/little boy that you were.
Five years, ten, twenty, they will fly by all too quickly. Some day you will be a man and move away, start your own family and then you will understand what it means to love someone as deeply as I love you.